On the way back from the office I see little kitty on the dark pedestrian. I think kitty is 1 one month old. The kitty just learned to walk and still dependents on the mother. I can't clearly examine what the kitty sex is because the street lite is too dime to lighten the spot that I want. I guess it is a kitty girl. I am touched by compassion seeing her. I always do every time seeing an abandoned cat.
I am thinking what I will do. What I can do for the cat. Keeping the cat at home is crossing my mind. She is fragile and dependent. I can't leave her alone. Doubt also crosses my mind. I am doubt that I can't take care of her well. I don't have enough space for pet at boarding house. Not all of my neighbours love cats. I bet Devy is the one.
I put the kitty on my front pocket of my bag. I put her slowly. I decide to released her in the small path near my boarding house. I think it is the best option. The path is rare of big vehicles. only motorbike crisscross the path once a while. There is also a lot off food in the garbage cans. Other wild cats around the path do eat from them. They are growing well.
I am walking on the path heading to boarding house. It's rainy night. I release kitty in the middle on the road. Kitty is meowing. She is heading to the opposite of me. I hear nothing but the the kitty mew while heading to my direction. I wish you survive the night and the night the after.
Next night I am trying to look after her. I find her nowhere. Perhaps she dies but i do hope someone has already took after her.
Little Kitty
ATM Lost
Last Sunday I went to graphic design exhibition in National Galery on near Gambir Train Station. I met Dina and Nicky. The Two are my friends at campus. They asked me to join them to watch Blood Diamond on Djakarta Theatre.
We took taxi to sarinah for taking some cash from ATM. I took the middle machine while the two took my left and right ones. After taking cash I walked out from the machine box. We go to the theatre building next to Sarinah and buying tickets.
Fourty five minutes passed. Sitting in Oh La La Cafe I realised that I hadnt took my card out from the ATM. I rushed to the ATM counter. I found no card anywhere. I asked the security officers whether anyone had gave a lost card to them. They replied negative. I called the BCA call center to shut down any transaction from my ATM account. The officer accross told me that no newer transaction had occured before the shutting down. I was thankful knowing that my last money to survive is save.
The next day I went to BCA office center on Sudirman. I walked to the Customer Service desk asking for new ATM card. Thank You God. The process only took half day. Now I have my new card in hand. I must be more carefull next time.
Finally I have Internet at Home
I always dream having internet connection at home since I have computer. In my mind if I have internet, I will be able to channel my passion of playing games, chatting, browsing, and other online entertainments. Now it's not only a dream anymore. I finally have internet at home!!!
Recently my dad is ordered by his company to install internet at home. The company demands my dad to have new horizon of knowledge by taking benefit from information on the internet. He is not well literate about technology. I think the reason behind the company policy is good to encourage him to be more literate.
Dad consult me what provider is best suite for him and his budget. I tell him to install internet from cable TV provider (Kabelvision or Indovision) rather than Speedy (Telkom). Cable TV internet gives unlimited quota and I think it's cheaper than Speey monthly fee with the same quota. Mom and dad discuss the provider. Then they settle down on Speedy. It offers 4 packages. They take the 1st one. The 1st package offers Rp300.000 monthly fee and 1000 MB quota. Any exceeding quota will be charged Rp 500 per MB.
With that limitted amount we can't download games and browsing too much. We must used it wisely. At least I am happy that finally I have internet despite its limitted quota.
Marry or Not to Marry
As foreword I don’t know if the subject above will be the proper title for this posting bellow. I hope it will be the proper representation of what I am going to share here. I am not a good storyteller neither a native english speaker. Therefore I will use mix language, Indonesia and English, for this posting. I do hope my readers get the essence of what I am going to say.
Apa sih gender itu? Apa sih kodrat itu? When I was a student, my teacher described what gender means. Gender is not sex (jenis kelamin). That’s what I remember. Gender menyangkut peran sosial seseorang yang dibentuk di masyarakat. As example a woman should be at home. She should serve her husband and be a good housewife.
On the other side kodrat adalah takdir yang kita bawa dari lahir. Another example we can’t choose to be born as a female or male baby. We can’t choose our sex. If we could, there would be no shemale and operasi ganti kelamin bakal jadi komoditi tak laku. Second example only woman is able to give birth, menyusui, having monthly periodical cycle.
The two above are still warming up before we heading to the point of my tought. Here we go.......
One day I read an article on a newspapers. A lady who writes that article said that marriage, being a mother, and bla bla bla is a woman’s faith –– I do hope this word, faith, will be the proper translation of “kodrat”. I don’t find the exact word from my indonesia-english dictionary. Aku dibuat gusar oleh kata-kata dalam artikel itu tadi. Hello lady who writes that article!!!!! To marry or not to is our life option. Choosing a decision to marry or not is an option of life. It seems that this lady has been influenced, may be poisoned, by an ancient prehistorical opinion which says, “semua orang dilahirkan berpasangan dan HARUS menikah”. Jadi kalau seseorang tidak menikah maka masyarakat menganggap ada yang salah dengan dirinya. Ada yang kurang dengan dirinya. Ada apa-apa dengan dirinya dan bla bla bla sehingga dia tidak punya pasangan hidup. Masyarakat menganggap orang yang tidak punya pasangan hidup is a miserable and pathetic person. Dia akan melewati hari tuanya dengan kesepian dan kesengsaraan. Dia akan melewati hari tuanya di panti jompo dan tidak ada seorangpun dari anak/ cucu/ sanak saudaranya yang akan mengunjungi dia di akhir pekan karena dia tidak pernah menikah.
Menurutku menikah atau tidak adalah sebuah pilihan hidup. Jika aku bisa hidup lebih bebas dengan tidak menikah maka lebih baik I am staying single. Jika keadaan keuanganku bisa lebih baik dengan tidak menikah maka lebih baik aku tetap single. Menurutku hidup dalam pernikahan memerlukan biaya 2x lebih besar daripada hidup single. Wong yang hidup di satu atap ada 2 orang bukan satu. Apalagi kalo punya anak. Whuah!!!!! Habis tuh duit buat sekolah, makanin anak, biayain pengeluaran buat anak, apalagi kalo anaknya udah kenal cinta. WOOOOOW!!!! Tuambaaaaaah gedeeeeee!! Mending uang ditabung buat keliling dunia.
Dunia ini begitu luas. Kenapa harus menetap dan tinggal di satu tempat? Begitu banyak orang yang bisa ditemui di dunia ini. Banyak hubungan yang bisa dijajaki dengan banyaknya orang di dunia ini. Jadi kenapa harus hidup terikat dengan satu orang? Sampe mampus lagi!! “Till death do us apart”, begitu katanya. Jika aku bisa bertemu dengan 100 orang dalam satu hari kenapa aku harus menemui satu orang saja. Orang yang sama sampai salah satu dari kami meninggal. Membosankan.
Sebetulnya ini dari hidup melajang adalah meraih lebih banyak kesempatan dalam hidup karena dirimu tak dibatasi oleh aturan-aturan pernikahan. Inti melajang adalah kebebasan. Menikah bukanlah takdir yang digariskan Tuhan untuk manusia. Itu adalah pilihan hidupmu dan aku.
“Tapi kan di kitab suci dikatakan Tuhan menitahkan kita untuk beranak cucu dan bertambah banyak dalam jumlah dah bilangan.” Begitu sanggahmu.
“Iya!”, jawabku cepat. Aku melanjutkan, “Dulu kan jaman manusia masih sedikit. Cuma ada Adam dan Hawa aja kan?”. “Kalo misalnya hanya mereka berdua aja yang mengelola dunia ini kan kecapekan merekanya. Wong dunia begini luas. Lagian kalo mereka meninggal siapa yang akan melanjutkan pengelolaan dunia ini kalo bukan anak cucu mereka yaitu kita.”
“Mungkin Tuhan harus menciptakan manusia generasi kedua setelah Adam dan Hawa mati,” celetukmu.
Aku tidak anti menikah. Sungguh. Aku hanya belum memikirkan kearah sana. Being a single has not been my final decision. I have no traumatic love story which makes me to think this way. I surely not have. I only think that being a single will give me alot opportunity rathen than being a married woman. Currently I am open to any possibility of relationship. Bisa saja aku menikah. Bisa saja tidak.
Bagiku menjadi single sekarang membantuku fokus terhadap karir yang sedang aku bangun. Aku tidak punya masalah dengan patah hati sekarang ini. Heart broken will be fatal distraction for my career pursuing. I am grateful for that. I am grateful kalo aku punya waktu-waktu yang menyenangkan dan gila with my male and female friends.
Menikah seharusnya menjadi pilihan yang membahagiakan bagi yang memilihnya. Berstatus single seharusnya menjadi keadaan yang membahagiakan bagi yang masih mencari tambatan hati dan menjadi single semestinya menjadi pilihan yang membahagiakan bagi memilihnya. Menjadi single bukanlah kutukan. Menurutku menjadi single bukan status yang memalukan. Hello ladies out there it’s your choice whether to marry or not!
Comfort Leads to Lazyness
I grow in small family member. There are only 3 persons in my house which are dad, mom, and I. Growing as the only kid makes me a single object of affection from my parents. They give what I want if they are able to fulfill my wish. They support my expenses until I am able to earn my own money. Since this month mom is educating me to afford my own expenses so that I can be more independent.
Deep in my heart I feel satisfied with my current life. I have a home as my shelter. I have my own small sized private room with air conditioner mechine. I have my cozy spring bed and a warm thick blanket to cover my body at night from cold air conditioner breeze while sleeping. I have dinner to eat every night. I have two cats. I have no worry about monthly bills such as electricity, house tax, water, and so on. My parents pay those every month. My parents are strong and healthy to afford my life some years to come.
I am prouding myself up to the sky when mom or dad picking me from the office with car. My head is up the sky if I can show my parents cars to my friends. My parents are in their wealthy condition. They are able to afford 2 cars credit bill. Toyota Inova and Honda Jazz VTEC. I look down and I see that my office friends don't have my luxury. I feel comfort. I love my life.
Last night dad said,
"When will you raise your spirit?"
"I didn't satisfied with my current life when I was at your age."
"I kept finding a way to raise our standard of living that's why I can achive all we have now." "Have you study the books that I give you?."
"Yes, still one book", I said.
"Make a time target so that you can finish all of them in short time."
I didn't say a word. I looked at the ceiling above my head.
Dad continued his sentences
"You never grow young. your age is alwys crawling up. Who will afford your life when dad and mom pass away if you do not step out from your comfort life."
"If you satisfy with your current salary, you will not be able to change your life."
"You will walk on spot forever.".
"Look at your mom! She has high learning spirit in her late age."
"She does every word that she says. You should inherit that spirit."
I spoke no words and he continued.
"Raise up your spirit!"
"Change your life!"
"You are still young. There are a lot of challenge in front of you. Face it!"
"If I were young, I would take the star but I am not young anymore. I'ts your turn to take that star."
I walked out from his bedroom and walking to my own. I kept thinking of his advice. I have to start study those book this night. It's a must!
Next time I want to apply a job which dad recommends me to. I want to change my life. I have to step out from this comfortness. I have step out from this demonic circle which leads me to lazyness. I have to achieve my 3 dreams.